Your song will fill the air
Sing it loud so I can hear you
Make it easy to be near you
For the things you do endear you to me
Oh, you know I will...
I will again.. Not as if it is worth waiting for as… I always thought that I am a normal person with all the common feelings, that I do have hopes and dreams and sense the loves to the people and you, whom I suppose to deserve that for all the qualities, okay well, for me, those surreal qualities.
But now I should face the fact that I was so afraid to find myself and all those feelings had flown away along with the time goes by. Yes, it has been a really great odd at first; recognizing how perfect I could consider for so many years in all the ways that one like him, (again) with those (surreal) qualities, is where I might hang my hopes up.
We have grown up along the times, and it in me and us as sure as it should be, was never really been real, no matter how hard I have tried to believe and convince myself during these times on behalf of my self-assurance so that I won't complaint.
Going after for my own satisfaction of challenging my reckless dare, I come to proof it myself. So, oh my bad, then, today I know, I definitely have grown up and this common feeling I maintain and keep in rear-end of my very conscience was truly nothing. And I am now empty. Then again, it really makes me feel like a little child, when one of those surreal qualities has recently reminded me to keep on fighting and just stop complaining. We can undoubtedly figure it out; while he's now out there struggling for family's life, I'm pleasantly having my relax time and then waste it thinking unimportant thing (like this!) in my mother's air-conditioned bedroom alone (yes she's going to uncle's house and all brothers are not home.)
Ok here I stop; this blog couldn't be more personal, no more. Well, I just need a little bravery to believe this so I can move on and start again from the very beginning. xo
But now I should face the fact that I was so afraid to find myself and all those feelings had flown away along with the time goes by. Yes, it has been a really great odd at first; recognizing how perfect I could consider for so many years in all the ways that one like him, (again) with those (surreal) qualities, is where I might hang my hopes up.
We have grown up along the times, and it in me and us as sure as it should be, was never really been real, no matter how hard I have tried to believe and convince myself during these times on behalf of my self-assurance so that I won't complaint.
Going after for my own satisfaction of challenging my reckless dare, I come to proof it myself. So, oh my bad, then, today I know, I definitely have grown up and this common feeling I maintain and keep in rear-end of my very conscience was truly nothing. And I am now empty. Then again, it really makes me feel like a little child, when one of those surreal qualities has recently reminded me to keep on fighting and just stop complaining. We can undoubtedly figure it out; while he's now out there struggling for family's life, I'm pleasantly having my relax time and then waste it thinking unimportant thing (like this!) in my mother's air-conditioned bedroom alone (yes she's going to uncle's house and all brothers are not home.)
Ok here I stop; this blog couldn't be more personal, no more. Well, I just need a little bravery to believe this so I can move on and start again from the very beginning. xo
3 floats:
wah ada apa ya ...
well, despite of all the words that you said ... aku suka banget lagu itu :p
Semangat, Mus :)
yang penting lo tau apa yang harus lo perbuat. and stick on it!
:)
@Fenty: bukan apa2 kok fen :) anyway, thanks yaaaaa,,, and yes, the song is really lovable :)
@krisna: iyaa na, i wll.. thanks ya :>
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