Starry Starry Night

Vincent - Don McLean

Starry
starry night, paint your palette blue and grey..
look out on a summer's day
with eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
sketch the trees and the daffodils
catch the breeze and the winter chills
in colors on the snowy linen land.

And now I understand, what you tried to say to me..
how you suffered for your sanity, how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen.. they did not know how
perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry
starry night
flaming flowers that brightly blaze swirling clouds
in violet haze reflect in Vincent's eyes of China blue.
Colors changing hue,
morning fields of amber grain weathered faces lined in pain
are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

And now I understand what you tried to say to me..
how you suffered for your sanity, how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen.. they did not know how
perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you, but still your love was true
and when no hope was left in sight on that starry,
starry night.
You took your life as lovers often do;
But I could have told you Vincent
this world was never meant for one as beautiful as you.

Starry
starry night,
portraits hung in empty halls, frameless heads on nameless walls,
with eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the stranger that you've met,the ragged men in ragged clothes
the silver thorn of bloddy rose lie crushed
and broken on the virgin snow.

And now I think I know what you tried to say to me..
how you suffered for your sanity,how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not list'ning still
perhaps they never will.

If you really were still here, I would have said happy birthday daddy,

and even you're not here, I would still love to say; happy birthday daddy.

The Latest Apple of Daddy's Eye

Yesterday, my little brother was having his graduation day, I just felt like not having enough good words to be written unless; We are so happy and we are so proud of you! and our daddy would have been very proud of you too if he were here :)

I felt really so good having a full day being with people we love and they the ones who we know will always love us for always to capture our precious milestones from each of our lives together, and it is the most obvious and easiest meaning I could justify about a little thing that we used to call.. family! ;p

and I'm really proud being one of you guys like never before

p.s. mother said, "From now on, the complete three of you could make your own money, so it means.. no more subsidy!" Oooooh nooooo maaamaaakku, please say goodbye GUESS newest season's collections, Mus! dadaaa.. :)))

and oh, this comment is really important:

"well finally, there's none of my children becomes a doctor, gimana kalo ai sekolah lagi di kedokteran, mau? mama biayain lagi deh!"

Meeeeeeee?? oohhh Mommmy you are kidding..(?) There's NO WAY for an idea like that! *bloodily fainted* :P (actually, I'm still enjoying my life as a stress graduate from architecture school, FYI, hihihi)

A Noon on Her Lovely Bash of 23

Haloo, it's been a week from my latest post; the market share project at office had really weakened my desire to write :P. But thanks Goood, it's done.
Well... if you've followed to read my blog from the very beginning until today it is now, you could be familiar with these girls, ya? yes they're my best girls I've ever had on earth! (I'm trying to be romantic, but it doesn't sound so success ya? hehehe)

After the fast-breaking dinner, we took some times talking about everything, (and Taz was so curious about this Miss Universe and Indosiar thingy, while I was stalking to her new smartphone, hahaha mupeng bo!) and some times taking pictures (as usual).

I do really agree with what Taz said; there are a lot of people easily come in to our life, and it is as easy as that for them to walk away. And just let them if they want to go out :) The ones who keep staying with you are they that you could name your truly best friends. Just like this anonymous poem cited:

"friends are like stars they come and go but the ones that stay are the ones that glow."

Happy 23, Billy ! :)

Hope you and us all will always glow in our own hearts.

Love,

Her Dream House Project

I finally could relievedly breath knowing that my design work for a high school super-best friend is successfully built. It's done with some little revisions here and there. I did attend the syukuran party yesterday but couldn't take any pictures because the house was really crowded (and I hope the sketch which was created by software, haha, could do you a little favor :p). So I will work with the as-built drawing soon. OK then, congratulation for your new dream little house, Mbauput! :)

Kiai Kanjeng: Hybridity of Arts

Here I am again alone in the middle of the night, but now.. doing nothing! hehe. Being trapped in the office with big load of things to be done had really made me feel soo.. p l a i n . What I feel mostly is that I miss my mother, I miss my brothers, and biggest of it all I deeply miss my father (and after I looked back to some posts I wrote in August 2008, I unintentionally realized that the month seems to be always full of you, Dad). Anywayyyy, instead of doing nothing (I mean, I recently have nothing urgent to do, as usual), I browse to folders in my laptop and do delete some unimportant files and back up the important one. And I end up attracted by a presentation file that I made months ago to help my little brother prepared himself for the competition, and these are some slides from this presentation of his scientific writing that he presented at Mahasiswa Berprestasi Utama UI 2009.

And now I am curious more and more about this Kiai Kanjeng, and no! whaaw, it's almost two o'clock! I better gotta sleep now, my friend!

disclaimer: this Kiai Kanjeng thing is not mine, if you (probably) have any questions about this, please directly contact my little brother, hehehe

Le Pliage Dream

Want this one pleaseeeee? :P

source

Aaaaargh

I AM BLOODILY DIZZY!! :((

Bye Bye Baby

I would have not ever noticed that my not-so-newly-bought-CDMA cellphone is VANISHING somewhere, if one of my colleague, sindel azhari (;p), didn't ask me to switch it on. How ridiculous is that? I even don't remember the last time I see it! not in these days, I think. hahaha, and I 'm still wondering how could I be that ignorant to it?

Morning Blast

When we're on the way to work this morning, my mother picked a call from someone talking about her property business. Then all of sudden I truly felt like crying after I heard her spelling the name of her late husband to the man over there, even though I put it as my last name (and it became familiar ever since) I really really really miss him now.. :(

You are a Modern Twenties Girl!

This is my result for this quiz:

"You are ambitious and determined, career minded and clever. When charged with a task, you are persistent, and when faced with a problem you are resourceful and creative in finding the solution. Your approach to life may be a bit practical, but you are a hopeless romantic at heart."

I am craving already for this one, but I am prohibited by my mother to buy any until I don't know. Anyone want to buy me? Oh I think I could ask my generous big brother hihihi :P

August Rush

Hiya, it's August already! (claim; this post really has nothing to do with the film ya!)

After all, would say that July must have been the most oppressive month this year from its formers, I supposed. Cause there were these things happened (which somehow startlingly made me shocked, really)

Coming back from the work trip, I sensed that there must be something wrong about the management here (and everybody with whom I discussed it told that this thing is normal; a very humane fact about employer, employee and all, as it happens world-widely if you know the term called capitalism). But this somehow made me felt like losing my spirit and enthusiasm to do the job as I've always had before.

So I broke my own oath of not ever signing in to my facebook profile during office hours (this is simply because as I sign in it, I can't help myself to then log it out ;p) and there I was.. tempted in playing an application (where some colleagues were already been there) instead of doing nothing ( I lost the mood to work, remember?), and now I'm addicted to it so every time I go to the internet, it's a thing I visit in the first place. Yes true, it is this, haha!

and I'm now a level 17-er! a Super Shoveler :D

The sadness and mourning for Michael Jackson's death was still covering the air, and then came this tragic bombing news I read very early in July 17 2009's morning as I've been connected to my twitter account. There then all the people to blabbering about the tragedy, and not so long after the recorded CCTV video of the two hotels' lobby (with the red-circled suspect) was continuously played on telly.

The saddest part I felt profoundly was that we came to a conclusion that the bombers were, yes, moslems. People from the same group who did all previous terror bombings throughout the country. I barely believe this! and become so eager to know about them, so I brave myself to read a biography book (which has already been in our family's book cabinet from 2004, I guess) written by the one who got his death penalty on November 9, last year.

Call me a changeable or unstable or even the worst.. radical-ish? oh no. I anyway just tried to understand why that group came out with the decision of doing those internationally media-exposed horrible suicide bombings which no one (and me too) could find its moral logic? I just tried to perceive the reasons to cause their anger then need to be carried out. I am sorry for all the victims, I truly do also share my condolence for them. But if only we all know why..

Ah, I apparently never an expert to this international conspiracy theory thing, so I won't talk more about it. I myself now left confused about WHO ARE OUR REAL ENEMIES? my little brother once suggested me to watch this film if you want to know more about how this probably happens. Ok, I leave this topic.

Aaand, far from all of those miseries.. I want to congratulate some of my best friends who finally have their new place to get closer to their dreams. Ah thanks, you guys unintentionally have told me that dreams are not just being dreamed, but should be done! :)

From all of the things we've got through together, this time I realized how quite deep I felt about them (not trying to be romantic though). I am pretty sure that this photo hasn't ever been posted in this blog. :D

And this must be the longest post I ever write, now! ah go to sleep all! Welcome August! :D