Hello, I can't imagine that I finally could achieve my monthly target, God helped me again through the construction tenders of education buildings at Andalas University, West Sumatera.
Honestly I sensed that this December was quite scary because of some emotional matter reasons (which I'm not going to talk about), and today, on the last day of 2009, I would like to say thank you firstly to Allah the almighty who still gives me the easiness behind all the difficulties in everything happened in my life, I always feel blessed for every seconds in my life and I am still trying to cherish it all. :)
Just like what I have written here last year, now I would love to breakdown my 2009's life all at once..
Jan.
In a dinner, my college buddies and I suddenly thought about establishing a group consists of us as designers who work to consult and assist people in designing architecture and interior. But this year seems hard for us though due to the friendship matters.
Feb.
I made a lot of new friends in this time, they are mostly friends of my friends. I don't know why, maybe this sounds funny, but in fact I found that with these bunch of kind and friendly people coming from different college I could feel more like 'home' instead of with those from my own college. We even have name for this friendship.
Mar.
Some colleagues said that my carrier seemed to be growing fast as the time flies by starting to help the manager to handle a several-couple-hundred-millions-rupiah project which was the first time experience to me and the company itself. But it didn't work well, because the future client didn't contact us for more details of the project proposal we offered. And anyway, meet a man I am used to admire since high school has completely made me confused and disarrayed, about what I actually feel for him and what I really want for myself and all.
Apr.
Well then, to be honest, I could still remember that in the early days of April, I rejected a promising working offer in the sister company of a national big-scale contractor company for I thought that I need to develop more what I already got here in this current place.
May.
The office was busy preparing its biggest event of the year, and my working days were coloured with some series of rehearsal since I was assigned as one of the Master of Ceremony for the Top 10 Award 2009.
Jun.
As long as I could remember there is nothing particular happened in my life other than an awkward feeling full with question mark in my head that I found this as a fear whose no basis and is existentially distracting.
Jul.
I finally could relieved myself of that fear and to release it go I try more and more hard doing all things at my best, I focused more on my work, I read more books, I watched more DVDs, I played more with friends, I was so excited when the office sent me to Padang to report an event held in Semen Padang factory and I felt pretty confidence and happy with what I currently did as a job. Waw, so far.. my life seems perfectly predictable, isn't it? haha I know it, because some friends said so.
Aug.
I perceive life is like a wheel, we who rotate in it could some time be at the upside and obtained the downside at another; so I could definitely understand if come and go things did happen in life, even when it's your loved ones. I consciously lost a very good friend after defiantly addressed her some spoiled things about our cranky relationship which I can't put up with for any longer. And that's how she and I personally ended, I could say this as I really feel until now that we can't be the same again like we used to be. And the good thing happened was my younger brother's graduation!
Sep.
Lebaran day is a big day that we usually celebrate with all the big family's members. Gathered up with cousins always successfully forced me to think more about future life as a real woman (you know what I mean) and it's super depressing, indeed.
Oct.
It was just like yesterday when the office emailed me that they shortlisted my application and then arranged the time for an interview, but I can't tell with words about time flies so far that the psychology test and series of interviews has already took place completely a year ago.
Nov.
I was turning 23. instead of feeling happy, I encountered myself a bigger fear than the one happened months ago, I said to my friend that 23 is somehow close to 25 and closer to 30. Okey I admit it, I am afraid of being 30 without reaching anything big. Even I have not decided yet what I considered as BIG. Anyway, I hide my birthday in my facebook profile months before the d-day, and it really makes me realize that people who congratulate and send you wishes are they who really care and know you so that they remember your birth date. I don't fancy hundreds of facebook wall congratulating me for my birthday from people I barely know, because for me it's odd.
Dec.
I know life's hard, but I found out that the more you see and pay attention to other things around, you will knowledge yourself more, that is how I learn in this university of life. The chance of backpacking in some South East Asia's countries where I could see people with different cultures makes my eyes wide open and grows my eagerness about the world even more.
Honestly I sensed that this December was quite scary because of some emotional matter reasons (which I'm not going to talk about), and today, on the last day of 2009, I would like to say thank you firstly to Allah the almighty who still gives me the easiness behind all the difficulties in everything happened in my life, I always feel blessed for every seconds in my life and I am still trying to cherish it all. :)
Just like what I have written here last year, now I would love to breakdown my 2009's life all at once..
Jan.
In a dinner, my college buddies and I suddenly thought about establishing a group consists of us as designers who work to consult and assist people in designing architecture and interior. But this year seems hard for us though due to the friendship matters.
Feb.
I made a lot of new friends in this time, they are mostly friends of my friends. I don't know why, maybe this sounds funny, but in fact I found that with these bunch of kind and friendly people coming from different college I could feel more like 'home' instead of with those from my own college. We even have name for this friendship.
Mar.
Some colleagues said that my carrier seemed to be growing fast as the time flies by starting to help the manager to handle a several-couple-hundred-millions-rupiah project which was the first time experience to me and the company itself. But it didn't work well, because the future client didn't contact us for more details of the project proposal we offered. And anyway, meet a man I am used to admire since high school has completely made me confused and disarrayed, about what I actually feel for him and what I really want for myself and all.
Apr.
Well then, to be honest, I could still remember that in the early days of April, I rejected a promising working offer in the sister company of a national big-scale contractor company for I thought that I need to develop more what I already got here in this current place.
May.
The office was busy preparing its biggest event of the year, and my working days were coloured with some series of rehearsal since I was assigned as one of the Master of Ceremony for the Top 10 Award 2009.
Jun.
As long as I could remember there is nothing particular happened in my life other than an awkward feeling full with question mark in my head that I found this as a fear whose no basis and is existentially distracting.
Jul.
I finally could relieved myself of that fear and to release it go I try more and more hard doing all things at my best, I focused more on my work, I read more books, I watched more DVDs, I played more with friends, I was so excited when the office sent me to Padang to report an event held in Semen Padang factory and I felt pretty confidence and happy with what I currently did as a job. Waw, so far.. my life seems perfectly predictable, isn't it? haha I know it, because some friends said so.
Aug.
I perceive life is like a wheel, we who rotate in it could some time be at the upside and obtained the downside at another; so I could definitely understand if come and go things did happen in life, even when it's your loved ones. I consciously lost a very good friend after defiantly addressed her some spoiled things about our cranky relationship which I can't put up with for any longer. And that's how she and I personally ended, I could say this as I really feel until now that we can't be the same again like we used to be. And the good thing happened was my younger brother's graduation!
Sep.
Lebaran day is a big day that we usually celebrate with all the big family's members. Gathered up with cousins always successfully forced me to think more about future life as a real woman (you know what I mean) and it's super depressing, indeed.
Oct.
It was just like yesterday when the office emailed me that they shortlisted my application and then arranged the time for an interview, but I can't tell with words about time flies so far that the psychology test and series of interviews has already took place completely a year ago.
Nov.
I was turning 23. instead of feeling happy, I encountered myself a bigger fear than the one happened months ago, I said to my friend that 23 is somehow close to 25 and closer to 30. Okey I admit it, I am afraid of being 30 without reaching anything big. Even I have not decided yet what I considered as BIG. Anyway, I hide my birthday in my facebook profile months before the d-day, and it really makes me realize that people who congratulate and send you wishes are they who really care and know you so that they remember your birth date. I don't fancy hundreds of facebook wall congratulating me for my birthday from people I barely know, because for me it's odd.
Dec.
I know life's hard, but I found out that the more you see and pay attention to other things around, you will knowledge yourself more, that is how I learn in this university of life. The chance of backpacking in some South East Asia's countries where I could see people with different cultures makes my eyes wide open and grows my eagerness about the world even more.
This year is nicely closed by my satisfaction after gorgeous Robert Downey Jr and coolest Jude Law's acting in Sherlock Holmes :)
