So this is more or less related to her post. :) Thanks God, I read it in this 'right time'. Dayle, thank you for being such a right man in the in the right place. Well, not so long ago I ever felt that my life is already as awesome as I want it is to be. But hell it doesn't last long, because then I believe that now I suffer from a so-called quarter life-crisis syndrome!
To inform you a little introduction story, I was raised in a family that puts education and knowledge as the most important things we should achieve in life, so my brothers and I are encouraged to do our best to gain more and more. My family sounds ambitious, yes? Not that I am an ambitious person IMHO, I just feel pretty confident that I deserve everything I want if I could make some efforts to get it. Achiving good scores in any subject at school, going to a prestigious college, easily getting a job with the so called proper salary. Yes, I admit that's me, and give my humblest gratitude to God for giving me those blessings but I confessed that I didn't get them so easily; I tried so hard since I am not the smartest person here and I have sacrificed so many things, such as valuable thing named family.
I don't know how to express this "achieving something higher" things that my family tries to press me with, what would you do next? you are not going to be here for your entire life, aren't you? so what are you pursuing now? is there any new stage in the life planning list already?
Then my life is not as awesome as I think it is. Anymore.
So that it is how I have these scattered things in mind to be thought. Every time I try to focus, one by one, that randomness becomes dissolved even badly. I need to continue my education, I should get a better career path, I must decide what I want to be in the next five years, ten years, and so on, oh where this ship of life should be headed to? It has make me can't think clearly.
Ah, yes she's right, the world is rough and cruel. even inside my own self.
P.S: Dear Dayle, I'm sorry if I misinterpreted your thought, this is only my whisy-washy rant regarding to my lack of confidence to face the future world, because now I still don't know what I want to do next with my life.
To inform you a little introduction story, I was raised in a family that puts education and knowledge as the most important things we should achieve in life, so my brothers and I are encouraged to do our best to gain more and more. My family sounds ambitious, yes? Not that I am an ambitious person IMHO, I just feel pretty confident that I deserve everything I want if I could make some efforts to get it. Achiving good scores in any subject at school, going to a prestigious college, easily getting a job with the so called proper salary. Yes, I admit that's me, and give my humblest gratitude to God for giving me those blessings but I confessed that I didn't get them so easily; I tried so hard since I am not the smartest person here and I have sacrificed so many things, such as valuable thing named family.
I don't know how to express this "achieving something higher" things that my family tries to press me with, what would you do next? you are not going to be here for your entire life, aren't you? so what are you pursuing now? is there any new stage in the life planning list already?
Then my life is not as awesome as I think it is. Anymore.
So that it is how I have these scattered things in mind to be thought. Every time I try to focus, one by one, that randomness becomes dissolved even badly. I need to continue my education, I should get a better career path, I must decide what I want to be in the next five years, ten years, and so on, oh where this ship of life should be headed to? It has make me can't think clearly.
Ah, yes she's right, the world is rough and cruel. even inside my own self.
P.S: Dear Dayle, I'm sorry if I misinterpreted your thought, this is only my whisy-washy rant regarding to my lack of confidence to face the future world, because now I still don't know what I want to do next with my life.
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dear Mussa,
I have no word to tell, nor advice to suggest you. this quarter life crisis also happens to me, and maybe to million other 20s. I believe we can do nothing other than stay depressed and thinking, because everything we do seems so wrong -good or bad.
even tough my writing is not wholly about the crisis, I don't judge you misinterpret the writing. strangely things just happened, more than i can think. more than the crisis itself. more than the salary. more than the prestigious college. I just discovered that life has so many curves above my shallow knowledge.
and after all, I'm glad that my silly writing helped you. you really don't have to sorry to anyone, and I believe the rough life will continue to accompany you finding yourself :)
thank you dai, hopefully we can lead this cruel life in our own way :)
forget the crisis, but keep thinking (and depressed) :> i found that anyhow that's a way how we learn how to live the life.
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