Saturday, July 24, 2010

My Little Time

The whole week of research induction program in office is nearly done, we still have one more closing day on next Monday. I want it to end soon since I still have so many projects to do, 42% more works to accomplish achieving this month's deadline.

Hhff why it really feels so exhausting though I am not going anywhere. I was just thinking that, as I grew older and older, as others have decided about what they want to pursue in life, about how they would like to live their life. Should't I think of myself more? Regardless that my family sometimes is care enough to give me suggestions about things in MY life. But what I just realized now that they have their own life too so I can't just wait the guidance and stay in this state, everything we want to get needs to be fought for, right? Hence, I have to fight now. FIGHT for my own life. I am getting older and all I know is that my time is no longer that much. What if God takes my life soon like I never predict? So while now my family is busy about my sibling's leaving outside the country, I think this is now the right time I will contemplate about my things, all that never come as pride to my family. lol. Maybe I was just tired and crocked, thus it made my sense became devastated that I can't see things clearly now. Do you think it will be good if I spend a little time to be alone and think of it all and talk only with myself as I always did? I hate myself for being like this, actually.

Oh no.. what a negativity I wrote above.. but maybe it's true, I am just tired. Anyway, I post two snapshots from last week short business trip :)

12 floats:

Rukhpar Mor said...

Yes, everyone deserves some time to think things through...All the best=)

Mustika Sari Sayuti said...

@rukhpar mor: thank you yaa.. :)

novy said...

hehheh,. yes everyone would sometime feel the same way youre feeling now,. so ur not alone., and yes spending time alone would help u figuring what you want., or travelling to meet new friends would be a really way to escape from your routine., so wish u goodluck ;)

Blue Pearl said...

I love KL. Just looking at the pics of KLCC makes me miss it.

Mustika Sari Sayuti said...

@novy: ya novy thank you yaa.. you remind me that i am not alone, that i actually should be thankful.. for what i've had now in my life :) and the travelling idea is great!

@blue pearl: so you have to go back there then. i didn't really have much time enjoying the place, but in that short time, i know that kl is a lovely and friendly city :)

Fatima A. said...

beautiful picture!

FirLiajaH said...

travelling ke jogja aja sar?
:D
hehehehe

Mustika Sari Sayuti said...

@fatima: thank you dear@ :)
@ firlia: fir nantikan business tripku selanjutnya ke jogja, jadwalnya harusnya first week of august. but we'll see later yah :D

aishi lely said...

mustika.. senang sekali bisa bisnis sambil jalan2 ato jalan2 sambil bisnis? hihihi

SEMANGATTTTT!!!!! ;D

Mustika Sari Sayuti said...

@aishi lely: bekerja sambil jalan2 hehe iyaa senang.. tapi abis itu pusing lagi kalo uda balik ke kantor hehehe makasih yaaa dear :)

oldie goldie said...

everyone needs me-time, even me, who am a mother of 6 :D . inshaAllah you feel better soon sis!

Mustika Sari Sayuti said...

@oldie goldie: alhamdulillah i'm feeling so much better now.. having me-time has made me think of family and friends more where they are treasures i should always cherish for..:) thank you sis!:)