Kaleidoscope @2010

This is the third Kaleidoscope post I write in my blogging activity. Wow, it's been 2,5 years I have grown up together with this weblog.. with all the ups and downs I've shared. There are so many stories have been written here. It's funny and slightly touching as well when I review back all this year's posts. Compared to two previous years, the total amount of 2010 postings is much lesser, but honestly.. they have much more meanings however. I can't assume that I've made big change in my life to recognize in this year, but in some extent, I dare to say that I've learned a lot of new things and it somehow got me maturer than before.

Jan.

The theme for this month is New year, New project. Our team at the office finally started conducting a strategic research which I was completely blind with it since it was totally new for me. So there we were, busy collecting data from site, visiting them one by one. And it was conducted for almost six months ahead. Oh another more important point I've found was that Jakarta's traffic got even worseeeeee! But anyway, I love January for the entertaining work trip held by the office in Bandung, we went to great places there during our free time! :)

Feb.

The office sent me to two cities in a row in a month, the first one is to Palembang and a week later to Semarang. I basically have no problems with traveling, but one thing I hate about going to another cities ALONE is when I have to trust strangers. We can't easily believe a kind person just for granted,  think of what's that person's interest, because sometimes they have trap, yeah scary I must say.

Mar.

I just happened to find that March was the month with the most confusing thoughts, I can't clearly remember what was the first simultaneity for the anxiousness I felt. Has anyone ever suffered from quarter life crisis syndrome? Passion, career, love life. lol. Complicated.

Apr.

Rejected to accept the new challenge from a chance to boost my career by shifting to banking industry didn't make me blue, I was blackout instead, even though I've reached the last interview with the supposed-to-be future BOD. I thank God for letting me stand still at where I am now. Always trust that all those decisions taken were the best for me. I won't hesitate to say that my effort to reconcile with the long lost relationship with an old friend was the best thing I've ever fought for. Never knew that it would be this so much life-changing, dear you. Thank you for bringing that secure feeling in to my personal level. I owe you :)

May.

I was assigned as one of the Master of Ceremony for the Top 10 Architect Award by the office, again! :D So my days were filled with rehearsals (though this was my second experience being a mic girl). After the event had successfully done, my friends and I had a trip to Bali and it was very hilarious, I love!

Jun.

How does it feel to have friends that are still willing to stay with you, no matter how imperfect you are, giving you the warmest encouragement in heart to support you to be a better person? to whom you could always back to, every time you want, every time you need. Blessed. Alhamdulillah :)

Jul.

The strategic research project began on January was finally done this month, so my manager and I went to KL to have the research result presented in front of our clients. Oh no, they were the country directors from all of their office representatives in Southeast Asia, but thanks God, you made this easy for me. When I came back, our company's country director put the word Senior in front of my current position, I wondered: isn't it too early? By the way, this was actually a great time that I could say bon voyage! to the depressing hectic days working with that project, but deep inside I felt so shallow that I seem to not moving anywhere, so that I  thought that I need a big momentum to turn the point. But a super nice sister then told me something that I won't forget. Thank you! :)

My darling, your prayer is all the forward moving force you require and Allah will take care of the rest, Inshallah:) May all your dua be accepted and may Allah be pleased with you Mustika. 

~Blue Pearl 

Aug.

Another trip to the lovely Yogyakarta I heart so much. I was so happy to be sent by the office this time because I could have another chance to speak in front of the public. I also had a chance to visit my childhood-bestfriend who lived there.  

Sep.

This year's ramadhan was the best I could ever strive throughout my life. Hope that I can be much much better in the Ramadhan next year and next year after and after and after. InsyaAllah. Jazakallah khayran ya Allah for letting me in back to You, for strengthening my relationship with You, for all the bless you've overwhelmed me with.

Oct.

My younger brother went abroad to pursue his Master Degree. Days before he left we had a little argue for an unimportant thing. Yes it sounded really childish, but it somehow changed how I feel about our relationship. Aren't we already adults now? Or this is just me not recognizing it. We are adults now and sure, we are not the same person as in our childhood anymore. Also before he left, he texted me to take care of myself. You know I will, for I know that you always think of my best. Thank you.

Nov.

The company raised me again! twice in a year, wow. One of the senior researchers has resigned in September, so there was no other choice, my manager pointed me to replace that position. And it seems like a joke you know, imagining how you could be in a senior level and become a team supervisor when you actually have been working only for two years there. So that was why I went to Makassar, to recruit some local researchers for our next future branch office there. Another pick point, I turned 24! Aaaaaa.

Dec.

And here we goo, to the last but not least month. December. Hmm. A month that consumes me so much to take out wisdom wisely from all the things that happened, both the good and the bad.  And for all of that, I never felt this convinced, even when I decide to leave an old story of two young people who seem to will never be able to be responsible for what they both feel to each other. The most sincere thing I learn  from the long road experience we've taken during this trip is that  go forward and never look back. Always fill yourself with new spirit as often as you can.

Here comes the 2011! I am ready to embrace more happiness, forgiveness and blessings! InsyaAllah :)