That's What Friends Are For

Hello I'm back again in a very real positive mood :) In the previous week, a colleague gave us a copy of an everlasting and famous song performed by Peppi Kamadhatu, a female Indonesian Jazz singer, and it just feels real good listening to this after what I have had during the other unpredictable week, you know... very tiring wishful thinking and a series of concrete efforts to get a chance of change!
At least, I do not feel so depressed anymore :P Life is choices as others always say, you just have to take a look at it all and then decide what you want to fight for, and then.. go! :)

I want to thank my best girls for accompanying me in this sort of life-changing process related to my previous posting, this song is for you all :> (Do I hear like a radio announcer already? hehehe)
Here is it. Enjoy the lyrics. Adiaueos! :D

And I never thought I’d feel this way
And as far as I’m concerned
I’m glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember …

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That’s what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I’ll be on your side forever more
That’s what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there’s so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

And then for the times when we’re apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember …

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That’s what friends are for
In good times and bad times
I’ll be on your side forever more
That’s what friends are for

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That’s what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I’ll be on your side forever more
That’s what friends are for

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That’s what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I’ll be on your side forever more
That’s what friends are for
(Thats what friends are for)

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Rethinking Life

So this is more or less related to her post. :) Thanks God, I read it in this 'right time'. Dayle, thank you for being such a right man in the in the right place. Well, not so long ago I ever felt that my life is already as awesome as I want it is to be. But hell it doesn't last long, because then I believe that now I suffer from a so-called quarter life-crisis syndrome!

To inform you a little introduction story, I was raised in a family that puts education and knowledge as the most important things we should achieve in life, so my brothers and I are encouraged to do our best to gain more and more. My family sounds ambitious, yes? Not that I am an ambitious person IMHO, I just  feel pretty confident that I deserve everything I want if I could make some efforts to get it. Achiving good scores in any subject at school, going to a prestigious college, easily getting a job with the so called proper salary. Yes, I admit that's me, and give my humblest gratitude to God for giving me those blessings but I confessed that I didn't get them so easily; I tried so hard since I am not the smartest person here and I have sacrificed so many things, such as valuable thing named family.

I don't know how to express this "achieving something higher" things that my family tries to press me with, what would you do next? you are not going to be here for your entire life, aren't you? so what are you pursuing now? is there any new stage in the life planning list already?

Then my life is not as awesome as I think it is. Anymore.

So that it is how I have these scattered things in mind to be thought. Every time I try to focus, one by one, that randomness becomes dissolved even badly. I need to continue my education, I should get a better career path, I must decide what I want to be in the next five years, ten years, and so on, oh where this ship of life should be headed to? It has make me can't think clearly.

Ah, yes she's right, the world is rough and cruel. even inside my own self.

P.S: Dear Dayle, I'm sorry if I misinterpreted your thought, this is only my whisy-washy rant regarding to my lack of confidence to face the future world, because now I still don't know what I want to do next with my life.

On a Damp Afternoon a Year Ago

The thing I just recognized about that old Saturday's meeting, with the one I thought I knew but I actually didn't, is that it was still like yesterday, and really I can't believe we had past twelve full moons already. That day, I called myself to prove a thing I would never imagine I could do before as I don't have the bravery, and that it was, I thought I could deprive that old "it feeling" behind so I would be able to open this little blue heart to anything new. But guess what? It even became stronger and crazier! Ah, why do I still keep being delirious from someone I am not even sure of?

Love in a Headscarf

Last weekend I spent with hanging out with brothers and mother all day. I also gave myself a me-time by going alone to the bookstore (what a sweet solace of mine :D). Anyway I will be quick because this week seems to be very hard and heavy with the deadline of market research reports and let alone the monthly target. There's nothing to be worried though, but still.. I am scared to imagine how 'cruel' it would be.

This is the newest I bought yesterday, hopefully it would fill my hungry eyes for phrases and words! heee :P please check the website here.