Caught in the Middle

The previous two weeks were like a running race for me, to mention the induction program, mentality training (very inspiring though!), monthly targets, plus new 2 research proposals to be submitted. But the running thing was literally real, like my colleagues and I always ran to the railway station every after working hours to get the commuter train since we went out from the office so late ever since. Let alone the fact that I was really lack of sleep. That is why I could easily fall asleep everywhere. Zzzz. The most embarrasing moment was when in a morning train heading to the office I was accidentaly sleeping and I didn't remember how could my head was (accidentally) on the shoulder of a passanger sitting beside me. lol. I am sorry sir, it's out of my self-conscience. Tragic. Hohoho. Oh yes that's simply because I was so tireeeeeeeeeeeed, let alone helping my brother to prepare his needs for one month summer school abroad.

From all above, I am still happy that along with my friends, I could have some fun times and go to singing house together after office. Hehehe. Really love Lenka's The Show performed by a friend, good pick! :)

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Sooo have a happy weekend, dear all! :D

My Little Time

The whole week of research induction program in office is nearly done, we still have one more closing day on next Monday. I want it to end soon since I still have so many projects to do, 42% more works to accomplish achieving this month's deadline.

Hhff why it really feels so exhausting though I am not going anywhere. I was just thinking that, as I grew older and older, as others have decided about what they want to pursue in life, about how they would like to live their life. Should't I think of myself more? Regardless that my family sometimes is care enough to give me suggestions about things in MY life. But what I just realized now that they have their own life too so I can't just wait the guidance and stay in this state, everything we want to get needs to be fought for, right? Hence, I have to fight now. FIGHT for my own life. I am getting older and all I know is that my time is no longer that much. What if God takes my life soon like I never predict? So while now my family is busy about my sibling's leaving outside the country, I think this is now the right time I will contemplate about my things, all that never come as pride to my family. lol. Maybe I was just tired and crocked, thus it made my sense became devastated that I can't see things clearly now. Do you think it will be good if I spend a little time to be alone and think of it all and talk only with myself as I always did? I hate myself for being like this, actually.

Oh no.. what a negativity I wrote above.. but maybe it's true, I am just tired. Anyway, I post two snapshots from last week short business trip :)

From Flashback For Future

Dear Ajjah from Flashback For Future gave me this award a while ago and how come I just recognized her post? hehe. Well anyway, many thanks Ajjah! Yours is also one of the cutest blogs I've ever seen, and even the blog name has a very good meaning too.

the award came with few questions to be answered, so here it goes:

#1 what's the name of the blog and why u named it so
- i want to write all the good things happened in my life in the first place, and hopefully the vanilla ice cream in floats could represent those sweetnesses :D But eventually, I also wrote about sadness, fears, confusions even anger. So this now becomes no more relevant, yes? :P

#2 when did you start blogging?
- May 2008 :D

#3 your first follower
- heeee, I don't really recognize who is my first follower :D

#4 something for Ajjah
- many thanksssss to you Ajjah, as I've mentioned before, yours is also a cute blog I've ever known. :)

#5 next nine cute blogs:
Anya, Sha, Aisha, Fatima, Khadija, Jnana, Tiananda, Blue Pearl, Beyond Me. Regardless to what the award asked, for me there are stilllllll lots of cute blogs, including you! :)

She and Her Knot

Today, I attended an event with the extended family, an important milestone to a life stage of a dear cousin; the proposal that is.

I really love being gathered with all the uncles, aunties, cousins, nieces, and nephews, as we eventually don't have many chances to do so because everybody in our generation is somehow busy with their own new life now, no? Nooo, we still have another more plans to hang out together though. Anyway, aren't they so lovely? :)

the Architecture of Sight-seeing

Assalamualaykum dear all niceys :) I just came back home from a business trip to KL. You know, I can't believe that this 7months-strategic research is finally done. Well. Though there are still little revisions in some parts, but I am truly relieved, and honored (thanks ya Allah, You gave me all those strength and confidence so I could present the research material fluently and answer the questions well. Even the KL office's director said that I looked like a TV newscaster when I performed :D)

Well, all of the pictures from a little free time to go around KLCC and some tourism objects are still in the office's camera, I will post some of them soon :P

Anyway, the most happiest moment from this trip was that I finally could see and witness with my own eyes, Bangunan Tabung Haji and Menara Telekom which I used to adore in my architecture school era (even somehow inspired me this), these two high-rise buildings were designed by Hijjas Kasturi Associates.

Oke, enough for now, so I will catch up with you all later! :)
ps: Why I feel that lately I have difficulties in making appropriate title for my postings. Hehe.. yasudahlah.

Triple Chocolate

I really appreciate dear xenia and blue pearl for giving me this opportunity of receiving the award. Anyway, writing this post somehow helps me to state my goals in a more realistic and detailed way. Soo.. thank you ladies :)

(the post title was inspired by the airport's Dunkin Donuts early this morning)
Oke, let's start now..

So in the next ten years if Allah still give the chance to live, I would like to :

# always live together and accompany my mother
# get potential career promotion and get steady
# support my family financially
# understand basic arabic language
# tighten the relatioship with all the kinsfolk and my friends of life
# get a master degree
# see more new places throughout the world
# have a boldness in the path of being a good muslimah
# marry a nice and smart person with a specified level of religious commitment, good attitude and behavior as well :)
# have and nurture my children :) :)
# go to hajj with family

I'll send emails to whom I pass this award to. Check your inbox, please :D
And I'm going to start my working Monday by now.

Shadows of the Pomegranate Tree

Hi all, I haven't bought any book yet this month. But there are lots of books actually in our library at home, and I really want to read them all at once, as if I could. Anyway, I start with Shadows of the Pomegranate Tree, the first part of a quartet by Tariq Ali.

The Reflection

As I usually spend a little time in my silent night before fallen asleep to reflect today's life with all the things that happened and people I encountered, I guess I really need a BIG momentum as I feel like my life lacks forward moving force, you know. :(

Book, Family and Friends.

Hello everyone? How was your weekend? My last two days were fully booked by activities related to three things that I most treasure in life; book, family and friends. Satuday, my mother and I went to Jakarta Book Fair and it took almost a whole day since the traffic was sooo bad. Huh. Poor Jakarta. On Sunday, we had a family gathering at Bogor and I can't believe that now we are the three girls are adults already.

And finally the dinner with my girlfriends at the Harvest which somehow gave me a conclusion that:
there are no reasons to be restrained under a status quo circumstance unless you are already happy with that, as if there's nothing you have ever wanted like this. Since I don't have any good sign yet so I decide to let my future find and fetch its own chances.

Just like what a friend once said, nobody knows what will be happened in the future, but we don't have to feel scared of it. We have to fight and embrace the best in achieving our future life.

And oh ya! this is important!
I have been nominating my blog in SWB Awards.
So to you all my sister readers, please kindly join the network here and register yourself as well to participate the award like what I have posted before. We will be glad to see you there, ladies! p.s: dont forget to also follow SSOUQ. And I suggest you to "like" their facebook because you'll like it! :)

the One who turned back hearts

“Yaa muqollibal quluub tsabbit qolbiy ‘alaa diinika wa’ala thoo’atika”

Abu Ahmad and Ibn Abd al Muttalib, Aisha ra., said, "The Prophet SAW often prayed by saying, "O God of turning hearts, firm my heart to remain consistent in obeying Thee." I ever asked, 'O Messenger of Allah, why do you often pray with a prayer like that? Are you scared?' He replied, 'No one makes me feel safe, O Aisha. All my heart is in between two fingers of Allah, The Most Forcing. If He wants to reverse the heart of a servant of His, Allah lives turning them away.'

this is July already! the second semester of 2010! Hmppffhh... I just hope in this month and months ahead we will always be under God's blessings, in every second, every breath. Amin Allahumma Amin.

Anyway, I think I want to wear this kind of dress for my cousin's engagement ceremony in the next fortnight. :)