After quite a while being in a quest to find a good and affordable muslimah clothing brand for kids, finally... I found Paku Payung Club! The reasonably cheapest one, thanks to the instagram hashtag (I finally figured out the advantages of those #hashtags too). 

But the down side of it is that it's only available on instagram. As a customer who feels more confident to shop online via online marketplaces rather than directly from the (instagram) sellers, it's a let down for me. Anyway, despite being hesitant and doubtful about the transaction security, I dared my self to order and take the risk of disappointment caused later. 

My hesitancy proved to be incorrect, whenever my package arrived, it turned out very good. It's worth the money that I spend  to be honest, although the fabric material is not as delicate as the fabric of Bayi Banget Hijab. But I am not complaining here though, we are happy customer. 

Look at these dresses I bought for S. Aren't they cute? I will definitely get another one or two from another series. FYI, they seem to release new series every week! 

That's Why

Found this quote on Pinterest and felt pretty much related to it. 

A friend once said that the reason why we don't have the same close relationship as we used to with our old friends is simply because we are no longer walking on the same path. I somehow agree with that, we move forward and choose to make a turn in our life direction where that could be a choice where our old friends are not included anymore. But at that time,  in my defense I said that we could always still contact and keep each other updated although we live a thousand miles apart and do something totally different.  

Now I finally understand what my friend implied with her reasoning. No longer in the same path means nothing in common that we could talk about. Live in different side of the world means no more 'shoulder' to rely on every time we need, both physically and mentally. Do different things means different life principles and points of view about what's right and wrong. 

All these differences make us reluctant to still make a contact, even just for saying hi. Some people think they don't have much time to do that and some find it hard to say what next. And that's how it begins. If only we would try harder and put more effort to keep in touch with our friends, they would probably (hopefully) do the same thing for us. 

Daddy Dearest

I went to East Java my husband and my baby for a vacation to East Java, two months ago, which I still reluctant to write an entry about it. But today, I just want to share a little part of the trip we visited the cemetery where my beloved father was buried. It's a first-time visit for both my husband and baby, and the first time for me too, after 16 years we all moved for good to Jakarta.

I still regret that I couldn't find his grave that day, yes he was buried there, but all I can recall from my 13-years old girl's memory is there were only two graves at that time. As the time passes by, now the cemetery is starting to run out of its space. I've checked each and every of the graves but I still can't find any headstone with my father's name on it. I called my younger brother who lives 7500 miles away to ask which side our father's grave located, but he said that the name on headstone might have been vanished gone with the time, so it would be difficult for me to find. Yeah maybe he's right because I saw some headstones with no names. I could have contacted the caretaker, but I didn't do it because we're already on a tight schedule and need to drive again to the next city, so the least thing I could do there were just sending my pray and asking that He would have His mercy on my father.

we go on with life without him for seventeen years already. And things are totally different now. The three of us, his children, live in different countries to pursue our own happiness. But looking back to those years we had with him, I couldn't thank Allah enough that He gave us a little precious time to spend our joyful childhood together with a figure that was so wise, bold, yet humorous and adventurous. I loved how he was so keen to bring us in a road trip every weekend or school holiday to a new city or place. Above all that he ever gave me, I cherished that despite the toys, dresses, and shoes, I love the road trips the most that I wouldn't trade for anything. Something that I think I would like to pass to my kid(s) too.

Life Lesson from Passengers

"I hope you finally find someone who fills your heart. And I hope you let him in. I hope you'd realize you don't have to do something amazing to be happy."

Wishes from a best friend for Aurora (Passengers movie, 2016)  on her farewell party before traveling the space on the starship Avalon to colonize another planet. 

Give Up

One of the things that I might give up other than designing is maybe driving in Jakarta. I wouldn't be able to stand the nasty heavy traffic jam and the 'wilderness' of the people on the road. Every time we are riding on Jakarta's roads, I am always at this panic mode where I scream most of the time, it seems like those drivers would hit each other to have their cars moved first.

I really do hope that this condition will get better years from now, because this is the place where I spent most of my life growing up and where my family and the people I love live.

Hello, goodbye! 

Rule of Thumb

Nowadays, my rule of thumb for friend relationships is having a little respect for privacy. 

  • Everyone wants to be heard, so listen carefully, pay attention and wait to give responses until they finish with what they want to deliver, until we're asked. 
  • Everyone wants to be accepted as they are, so don't try to change them the way we want.
  • Everyone is different, so we all will have different 'boundaries'. Respect these boundaries by not crossing the line of where we have been welcomed to.


I have been eyeing these stuffs for this whole week already but haven't decided to buy them yet. What do you think? 

1. Baby bottle and food warmer

Crown Babycare Multifunction Warmer

Baby S is still fully breastfed till now, so the bottle warming function is kind of unnecessary, but as she likes her meals served warm, a warmer is a must have item. After I know that microwave usage is not recommended because of some particular health related reasons, I stopped using it and switched to manually heat on the stove. But it's such a pain in the wallet because our apartment's stove is the electric one, so I need to find a cheaper heating device. This one from Brown Babycare is about 20 SGD, I'm planning to buy it when we visit Jakarta later. 

2. Hot and cold food flask (thermos)

Clevamama Food Flask

Another useful item in S's feeding accessories list is food flask, I can say that because we already one from Shuma that we got secondhand from my friend. It has 500 ml capacity and it's big enough to put a day portion of soup or chowder, but unfortunately it's too big to be brought when we are out and about. That's why I am so tempted to buy this Clevamama because it's handy and enough for one meal and it can stay cold /hot for 8 hours. It's about 24 SGD last time I checked in Mothercare. But, do I really need to bring homemade food in a flask when actually now baby S always wants to have the same food that we eat in a restaurant? 

3. Long dress and hijab (gamis set)

Bayi Banget Hijab - long dress and hijab for baby girl

Look at the baby model, she's so cute in that dress! And I can tell that it's comfortable too, because my baby already has this gamis set (but different color and print) that was sent from Yogyakarta by my best friend as a gift. It's 180K IDR (about 20 SGD), a little bit pricey for babies that tend to grow over night, isn't it? Maybe anyone would like to send us this one too? *big grin*


I need to continuously remind myself that my life is not a competition with other people's life. It doesn't mean that 'I lose' when I don't have what they have, and it doesn't mean that 'I win' either when I get the chance to have what they don't have. 
Get this, because if I always compare the things I've achieved in life with someone else's, I would never feel content with my life that could make me an ungrateful person. 


Not everything that happens in your life has to be posted on the Internet letting others know about it. 
Sometimes, some things are better when you keep it only to yourself and little amount of people you usually have around you.